I haven't written a newsletter in the last couple of weeks.

The frankness is that 3 weeks ago I did one of the deepest psychedelic journeys I've done in my life, and it has taken some time to congeal back into a 'form' that feels coherent and stable.

That's my inner academic coping with writer's block lol.

It has been incredibly difficult to write about my experience (for those that don't know, I did huachuma, 4 hits of high-quality LSD, and then 6 hours into the trip, did 3 rounds of 5MEO).

I specify for the connoisseurs of consciousness.

For everyone else; the question is, why Erick?

And the truth is, because the still inner whisper in me wanted to try it.

A lot of my life choices are because the still inner whisper glints with excitement when opportunities like this present themselves.

Being 3 weeks removed from the experience, a couple of things become clear:

• the details of this journey are not for the public
• the fruits of this journey will inform everything I do 'for the public'

This experience I had 3 weeks ago was profoundly 'genetic.'

A part of why I was interested in doing 400 micrograms of LSD is because of the research done by Stanislav Grof.

His findings: 350 to 400 micrograms of LSD tends to induce 'rebirthing experiences.'

People literally report re-experiencing their births, and that this birth experience under LSD is deeply correlated with life-altering improvements to mental health.

I got to taste that experience.

But the big practical take-away was that I'm stepping into the next phase of my dharma, which symbolically came as 'Simba returning to Pride Rock.'

It's a long story for another time, but the essence of this symbol revealed itself in the following way:

How many of us pass that bar?

What does it take to be able to host an honest supper?

This is the next project I feel called to work on.

The other really interesting outcome is that in the past 3 weeks since this journey, a whirlwind of events have unfolded where I now find myself as the new leader of Fit For Service.

Aubrey is stepping away to water other gardens, and I have offered to lead FFS into its next evolution.

In some ways, this feels like a lateral echo of the 'Simba returning to Pride Rock' symbol.

My intention as the Chief Dharma Officer of FFS (yeah I got to give myself that title lol), is to create a 'garden that turns into a food forest.'

By the end of 2025, I intend to have deconstructed and distilled everything FFS has learned through 6 years of hosting transformational containers so that anyone who desires to become fit enough to 'honest an honest supper' will have a place to learn how to do that.

With this done, I will pass Fit For Service to Claire and Clayton, and by 2026, I will be on to other gardens myself.

There is a depth to the psychedelic world that transcends linear time.

To find myself at the helm of FFS after a journey dominated by Lion King imagery is hilarious to me.

I'll keep you all in the loop as the journey unfolds.

PS. My fiancé is hosting a 3-hour live class on how to magick the fck out of your Winter Solstice. If you're feeling called to start 2025 with a deep sense of holiness and intention, Caitlyn is a phenomenal teacher.

Song I'm Listening on Repeat

​Street League - Hucci ​

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