I am both a child of God, and a child of the simulacrum generation of American culture; a 90s baby. I lived on fake food, primetime television, pop radio, the full vaccine schedule, and a Prozac commercial every 8 minutes repeating the chemical imbalance lie. I was told I didn't have a soul, and that there wasn't microplastics collecting in my testes. Both were lies. Not many people talk about what it means to have a soul during the collapse of an empire. When I say soul, I mean the the same...
16 days ago • 14 min read
In 17 days I'll be walking out of a sweat lodge and guided to a spot under a tree, where, for the following 4 days, I'll sit without food or water, listening. To nature, to the voices in my head, the pulses from my body, and god willing, visions sent by the dreamer. I'm nervous, and honored. I'll have a sleeping bag and a tarp. They tell me the tobacco will protect from the scorpions and snakes. I tell myself this quest will protect my dharma from the creeping opiate we call comfort. My...
25 days ago • 4 min read
I: Welcome To The Egregory John Constantine could see angels and demons. To have Constantine vision is to be able to see egregores and nephilims. They’d die without us, and we’d be only animals without them. If you want to help this planet, the next generation, and your family, the crafts of our time are: Egromancy (the art and science of growing Egregores)Egronomics (the study of the egregore ecology). All egregores started in the heart of a human artist. Through their speech and behavior,...
about 1 month ago • 11 min read
Momma, if I start a cult, it'll be about dreams. I've caught 23 the past 12 days (don't worry, we catch and release over here). We all dream every night. I think the fact most people don't know that, don't notice that, is one of the loudest invisible signals that our culture is profoundly disoriented. Specifically, our attentional systems are dull, distracted, and disillusioned. Sleep research finds we all dream 6 to 7 dreams per night. So, it's not that you don't dream, it's only whether you...
about 1 month ago • 9 min read
What is it inside us that keeps lying when we know they know we're lying? Remember when, as a kid, you'd get caught in a lie, and would just have rather died than admit you lied? lol, me too. But have you considered when was the last time you did this as an adult? When was the last time you looked in the eyes of your best friend, child, parent, partner, or yourself, and lied knowing they knew you lied. I don't think Hell is a place in spacetime we go after we die. I believe Hell is a psychic...
about 2 months ago • 4 min read
“Which superhero would you be?” Normally, an innocent question, but not when Caitlyn Howe is asking me. Caitlyn is both my partner in entropy and mirror to my muse. I’ve learned that the more spontaneous her questions or intimations, the more likely she’s unknowingly musing on my soul’s behalf. Standing outside the Austin theater, having just finished James Gunn’s Superman, I found my mind blanking…I didn’t have an answer for her. This surprised me. I’m a big superhero guy. From a Jungian...
2 months ago • 9 min read
Let’s Talk About Entities One of the areas I feel most misunderstood by friends is the topic of entities. Specifically, entities they feel they have to ‘protect themselves’ from. I know a lot of people who invest a lot of time, attention, and money into practices, services, and products meant to clear, remove, or protect against entities. The result is a pantheon of techniques performed with quiet anxiety, like a friend who hand sanitizes every time they leave home. In the extreme, I’ve seen...
2 months ago • 11 min read
Warning: the topic of this emails is grotesque, but it is where my mind is at this weekend. I spent 9 hours the last three days learning about Jeffery Epstein. I don’t know if it’s pretentiousness or discernment, but I’ve been skeptical of most shares on the topic because I didn’t see evidence of strong epistemological rigor. We don’t give the devil his due when we’re sloppy with our imagination. That’s changed; I’ve found some journalistic rigor and it’s blown open my reality tunnel. The...
3 months ago • 3 min read
You’ve done good for a kid who came from a culture that ate their Elders. If you had living Elders leading your leaders, you would already know that the task of your life is to give birth to your Soul, and that what grows Soul is deliberate disobedience. You’d know that getting what we call a body is one of the most sought after experiences in the cosmos. You’d know that the Earth is a deity, our bodies her seeds, and planted in each of us is a sacred kind of plant we’ve come to call Soul....
3 months ago • 2 min read